I lost two of my little fur friends today. Their names are Tiger and Scootch (Butterscotch). I picked out Tiger when I was 8 years old and Scootch was born under my bed when I was 9. They've been my buddies for most of my life. I got a text from my mom on Monday letting me know that an appointment has been made to put them to sleep. Knowing in advance, I've had some time to mentally prepare.
So many thoughts have been running through my head as I prepared to lose these two. I don't quite know how to put them into words, but I'm going to try.
I've always been an animal person. Growing up there were 5 cats and 2 dogs at my parent's house and that's 100% my fault (sorry mom). We've lost 4 of the cats in the last 3 years, 3 of which in the last two months. One of them got outside and we haven't seen her since.
When we get pets, we generally know their lifespans. We are fully aware that they don't live as long as we do. We know that we are going to have to lose them one day, so WHY THE CRAP DO WE DO THIS TO OURSELVES? The answer to that is so simple. Because they give us so damn much love for their entire lives. That's literally all they do. They just LOVE. They are there for us on our bad days. They don't care what we look like or if our house is clean or if we smell bad or WHATEVER. They just freaking love us. I grew up as an only child and when I felt lonely or when I was having a bad day, you know who was there? My animals. Because that's just what they do.
As much as it hurts to lose them, it would have hurt even more to never have had them in the first place. I'm so so grateful for the unconditional love that they have given me. I'm grateful for the snuggles I have mostly forced on them. When I got to my parent's house today, I was a freaking mess. And you know who immediately came to my side to try to comfort me? My pets. (I mean, that didn't really help because it's was like, "OMG YOU'RE SO CUTE I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU" kind of a thing, but you get the point).
So, if you've made it this far in my jumbled mess of thoughts, thank you, and when you're done reading it, go snuggle your kitties, give your dogs some kisses, put your lizard in a hamster ball and let it run around and laugh as it screams (lizards scream if you didn't know), do WHATEVER, just give your little pets some lovin' because sometimes we take them for granted.